Christ Centered Gamer

46 “Why do you call me ‘Lord, Lord,’ and not do what I tell you? 47 Everyone who comes to me and hears my words and does them, I will show you what he is like: 48 he is like a man building a house, who dug deep and laid the foundation on the rock. And when a flood arose, the stream broke against that house and could not shake it, because it had been well built.[c] 49 But the one who hears and does not do them is like a man who built a house on the ground without a foundation. When the stream broke against it, immediately it fell, and the ruin of that house was great.”

I've been thinking about this a lot lately.

Some of you may know of my history on this forum, and the struggles that I've been going through. I've been having some rebellion issues, and lost sight on what is really important. I've been living more carnally than I have been since I first gave my heart to Christ, and I've been purposely ignoring the beautiful things that have been happening to me in the past year. Miracles, even.

It's weird. As much as I can admit that He is there, and He is watching over me, I struggle to accept that He loves me. Maybe it's insecurity or guilt, but I think it's mainly because I'm afraid to give up on the things that give me pleasure. Overeating, lack of exercise, drinking, hate, judging, lust, bullying, escapism, isolation, etc feels safe to me.

I know that it's because I'm too afraid to make any serious changes to my life. I feel like fear is literally killing me every single day. I know how to manage it, and I know what will make me overcome it, but I don't give myself that push to make a difference. I'm living in a bubble.

Though, to give some praise, I have learned a lot from this struggle.

I woke up this morning feeling very sad. Like, reality actually has hit me. Every night I'd say a quick prayer asking God to forgive me for what I'm currently doing, as well as begging him to save me. Of course, what good is that when I just sit around and continue living for the world?

49 But the one who hears and does not do them is like a man who built a house on the ground without a foundation. When the stream broke against it, immediately it fell, and the ruin of that house was great.”

That's what I did and that's what happened to me, and I was confused and startled when it did.

I've been thinking long and hard about everything. This website, my friends, my family, my job, my lack of going to Church and reading the Bible... EVERYTHING.

I've come to realize that the real issue is that I originally didn't build my faith on the rock. I've instead decided to live my life MY WAY with the benefits of Christianity, and then I'm surprised that suddenly all of it came crashing down once it didn't go my way. It's weird because I was the one who would usually spout this towards others. I would be the one judging others for nitpicking the Bible to please themselves. Funny how I was being a hypocrite that whole time. I'm afraid to change because I don't WANT to change.

I want to continue living for God. I want to start building my faith on the rock.

Please pray for me and well as direct me towards any audio or video sermons that may help me understand this better. I'm not sure where to begin. All I know is that I'm very excited!

I would say that a big portion of living the Christian life is sacrifice. You have to give up or turn away from a lot of things that are considered popular or trendy, and yes, that can indeed be difficult, especially when peer pressure factors into your life-changing decisions.

However, living a Christian lifestyle and even revelation from the Holy Spirit can show you that some of the things you've decided to abstain from are actually more destructive that you realized. Sure some of your friends and family may seem happy doing some of these things... but as you watch, it appears that the happiness is temporary and often leads to feelings of regret, disappointment and possibly even guilt. These feelings aren't what you get for living with the promises you've made with God.

Also remember, no matter how hard it seems to be to sacrifice something, Jesus paid the ultimate sacrifice. Your troubles are minor compared to what He endured - and He endured it all for you. And best of all, He has promised to give you the same type of eternal life and happiness if you only follow His example. I know that this thought often helps me out - especially when faced with temptations - and I pray it will serve to comfort and guide you as well.

Thank you very much Sstavix. I agree with you wholeheartedly. I've felt worse and worse once I gave into temptation, and now I have to avoid them and allow the Holy Spirit to take control of my life again.

Praise God for the realization and praying for strength and encouragement and that you may be a good witness to others.

Yeah, I'll be definitely praying too.

Praying for you dude.

You are not the only one who finds it hard to accept the fact God loves us..........I do too. When I first gave my life to Christ, I had so many changes going on. I lost weight because I exercised more, I had become more than I thought of. But then something happened that I can't pinpoint and now here I am in this position.......


I am becoming more aware of this, but doing something about it is hard. I have thoughts and stuff running through my head that you wouldn't believe.........that, and some imaginary friends that are still a pain to get rid of. But this isn't about me.


God, help Krytae/Blue with his situation and help him see that You do Love him and that you no longer look at his flaws. There is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus and those who are in Christ are forgiven for eternity. There is no remembrance of sins, and all sins have been put away. Grace is in Jesus and it is super-abundant, Lord. You are The One who heals and redeems, Father. Reveal to Krytae Your Love and Your Grace like You always do.


In Jesus's Name,
Amen.



God bless you, Krytae/Blue. You know we can hang on PSN and Steam, brah.