My aunt was recently diagnosed with type 2 diabetes, and is going through a very stressful and emotional time right now because my cousin(her only son) is living over here. Two years ago he married someone that I grew up with in the Church I used to go to. My aunt has been very depressed ever since, and she's very lonely. Please pray for her.
Along with that, my cousin and his wife are expecting a baby soon. They are not financially ready for it at all, and are going through a lot of pressure right now, as he is looking for a job. He originally wanted to get a better degree but all of that has been crumbled because he has a kid coming. Please pray for them.
My grandmother who lives on the other side of the country has had her third stroke. She hasn't been taking her medication and is now going to live in a nursing home. This is very stressful for all of us. It's very hard for me, because this is the only grandma I have left. When my other grandma was battling cancer and passed away, I was broken up about it for a very long time. Please pray.
My grandfather that lives near me is going through depression due to his age and other personal problems (that I don't want to reveal). He was very depressed during his birthday a week ago. Please pray for him.
I made a post 2 days ago that I have deleted later on. I've talked to a few of you guys about it privately. I feel like I can reveal what I went through now.
Today I've decided to stop playing WoW(although that's not really the important part of what happened). I'm very stressed out about this because I really enjoyed the people I played with and I feel super guilty. I feel like I made the right decision, but in the back of my mind I still feel like a jerk because I've left without saying anything.
The problem is, I've been feeling like garbage all day yesterday and would have massive mood swings for no reason. I felt hysterical, as I would pretend like I'm very happy and upbeat when I was actually hurting deep inside. It's very creepy. I didn't feel like myself anymore.
Yesterday I was on ventrilo with the guild master and another member and we were having an okay time. I then randomly had a massive mood swing towards something while we were playing (I don't even remember why). I didn't say anything mean, just told them that I'm really angry and need to relax. I couldn't relax because I felt like I was going to explode. I don't remember ever getting this angry spontaneously before. I had to make up a lie that someone was getting me mad, because I didn't want to come off weird.
I think it's because I can't handle this stress anymore. As I'm typing this, my stomach is in a lot of pain, like I have a hundred violent butterflies in there. I think it's a combination of all the things that are happening right now. I was acting like my old self again in this guild, so I felt it's time for me to leave. I don't ever want to come back to that game. It makes me depressed and sin, because I get too into it and disregard what is happening in my life. I really will miss those guys though, they were awesome.
Please pray for all of us. I know there is a lot to this post, but I really trust you guys enough to reveal most of the things that I, and everyone in my family, is going through.
Thank you.
