I recently went through what you might call a "dark time" when I basically turned away from the Lord, it all really started when I started my new school year and was swept up in the craziness of it all. I was basically addicted to bad things on the Internet, (sigh, why does the internet have to be sooo bad) porn, innaproppriate stories and fanfictions, all that junk. And then, I went through a time of depression, which an amzing freind helped me through (A.K.A> JohnHen) and then I met this guy who him and I would make very sexual non-God-pleasing jokes that were just NOT acceptable, for anyone really, and then I started writing my anger towards God out and started writing very innapropriate stories, like the ones I was reading on the Internet, and then, my mom found the stories, and confronted me about it and she had also on day when she was on YouTube found the videos I had been watching, so I got whacked into place, punished and when I was grouded for two weeks, I started reading my Bible and the first page I opened to was Psalm 38 and that's when I turned to God and fell on my knees and cried out to him. THen I told my friend about it (JohnHen) and she helped me, and here I am today, when I couldn't tell anybody about his mess I was in, I'm posting it on the Internet, and I praise God that I am now A Child Of God.
And I am actually thankful that God put me through that struggle because if my Mom and Dad had not found out about it, where would I be now???
Psalm 38 English Standard Version (ESV)
Do Not Forsake Me, O Lord
A Psalm of David, for the memorial offering.
38 O Lord, rebuke me not in your anger,
nor discipline me in your wrath!
2 For your arrows have sunk into me,
and your hand has come down on me.
3 There is no soundness in my flesh
because of your indignation;
there is no health in my bones
because of my sin.
4 For my iniquities have gone over my head;
like a heavy burden, they are too heavy for me.
5 My wounds stink and fester
because of my foolishness,
6 I am utterly bowed down and prostrate;
all the day I go about mourning.
7 For my sides are filled with burning,
and there is no soundness in my flesh.
8 I am feeble and crushed;
I groan because of the tumult of my heart.
9 O Lord, all my longing is before you;
my sighing is not hidden from you.
10 My heart throbs; my strength fails me,
and the light of my eyes—it also has gone from me.
11 My friends and companions stand aloof from my plague,
and my nearest kin stand far off.
12 Those who seek my life lay their snares;
those who seek my hurt speak of ruin
and meditate treachery all day long.
13 But I am like a deaf man; I do not hear,
like a mute man who does not open his mouth.
14 I have become like a man who does not hear,
and in whose mouth are no rebukes.
15 But for you, O Lord, do I wait;
it is you, O Lord my God, who will answer.
16 For I said, “Only let them not rejoice over me,
who boast against me when my foot slips!”
17 For I am ready to fall,
and my pain is ever before me.
18 I confess my iniquity;
I am sorry for my sin.
19 But my foes are vigorous, they are mighty,
and many are those who hate me wrongfully.
20 Those who render me evil for good
accuse me because I follow after good.
21 Do not forsake me, O Lord!
O my God, be not far from me!
22 Make haste to help me,
O Lord, my salvation!
English Standard Version (ESV)
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