I became a Christian about a little over a year ago.
I grew up in a gospel environment, yes, but (with all due respect) sometimes when you're born into something, it doesn't appeal to you as personally as it would if you had discovered it on your own. Due to this, I spent most of life questioning God rather than accepting Him, only believing either because I was told to or because it was the norm in my surrounding.
In August of 2013, I was joining the military & was away from home in Missouri. At that moment, I decided that since I'd be starting a new life on my own, I may as well find Christ for my own, ON my own. To make a long story short, I found a new Church, one that wasn't the church that I was born into, & ended up joining it in early 2015 (after abandoning Christ "for good" in 2014, on account that it was a terrible year for me since my military attempt didn't work out). On top of that, there are some of my closest family members that I haven't even told about my decision (all this time).
I get the feeling that some of my family members are either not convinced that this new Church of mine is beneficial to me or that it in itself is beneficial in the first place -- some of them, I even feel, do not like it nor my decision. To make matters worse, I still feel like the same Me. Granted, I can feel my faith more consistent than ever before, but I still feel like the same person w/ the same issues, the same flaws & the same self-esteem.
I'm shortening what would be a 4-hour, 2-page conversation. I guess that my prayer request would be to pray for me to learn what I need to do to change myself, while also learning how my changing could positively influence my family & their view on my decision.