Thanks again fathom, you're really helping me clear my mind with your encouragement and truth.
I have tried numerous times to go back to that church. I will tell you now, I get a lot of respect from people, but I feel it's for the wrong reasons. People respect me because I was the first young person to leave the church, and others think that I'm just a rebellious person and the only way for me to be saved is by going to their church. They view others churches, and ridicule them because they think their church is the only right church. A lot of the young people want to leave, but they are forced to go to the church. They would rather the kids not even be christian, instead of going to another church.
I would attend youth services and choir practices every once and a while after I left. However, eventually everyone stopped going to the youth service and choir practice was more about goofing off and angering the conductor. It also doesn't help that I would get ridiculed for going to an "english" church (I forgot to mention that I grew up in a Ukrainian/Russian speaking church).
I think I have a lot of anger and sadness from my past, and I need to learn to forgive these people and love them. This is one of the things I feel like I'm avoiding, and it's eating me up inside. I will pray more about this tonight, and try to learn more about how to forgive others.
As you can see, I've really tried to stay with them, and I really hope that things work out over there. Really though, I feel like I've moved on and I need to find a church that I can be a part of. I need to work towards trusting God with my life, instead of worrying about what tomorrow will bring. Moving away and learning from my past is something that needs to happen, otherwise I'll end up being more miserable and not going anywhere.
Also, even though I grew up as a Pentecostal, I don't have anything against the other denominations. I would be willing to go to any church as long as they don't attack me for my beliefs.
I will try to explain this to my family, and will try to attend different churches weekly to see which one feels like home.