I just prayed .
First let me tell you that you are in my prayers brother!! I also have ADHD, I understand the frustration and at times depression that comes from having this. I know how hard it can be to deal with not only the forgetting things and unfocused feelings that come with it. I also know that having ADHD makes you prone to depression as I have been there many times before. I know what it is like to have friends and family who do not understand why you cant just remember the littlest things.. being yelled at by my dad for having bad grades when I truly was having a hard time or having a wife(now ex wife) who would tell me it was all in my head(that part is true..lol) that ADHD was not a real problem. I know the lonliness and hopelessness this disorder can cause in your life.
I say all of this, as when I was reading your post, I could feel the pain coming out. I could sense the same feelings I had and it touched my heart. I am not ashamed to admit the many number of nights I have cried over the frustrations of dealing with this.. and the times of depression are almost to much to deal with. To add to this alot of folks with ADHD are not very outgoing..we are shy and its like we build up a wall to shield ourselves from having to deal with issues caused by having ADHD. I have so many times tried to cover up mistakes I made or things I forgot with lies or just by just plain ignoring them hoping they go away. Dodging bill collectors and such.. it is not fun. If any of this is hitting home or how you are feeling right now then let me tell you that yuo have a friend here in Thailand who understands and is praying hard for you.
You know I was lucky enough to have a mother who was more devoted to our lord and saviour then anything else in her life. She gave me the verse that I live by, which you see in my signature. I share this verse with you and I hope it hits home for you . The fact that God already has plans for us.. and they are good plans.. should lift your spirits. If you just have faith, and give all yourself to him you will find him and he WILL lift you up from pains you are dealing with right now.
Lastly, I know you are looking for good Christian friends.. If you would like I would be happy to give you my personal email which you can email me at any time and there are many others on this site who I am sure would be happy to chat with you and game with you. For friends closer to home, I will be praying that the lord opens these doors for you. In the meantime, hold your head high and know that you are loved!!
Your brother in Christ!!
Praying for you for sure! Know that the Lord understands your situation way more than anyone on earth. He is the Lord of wisdom and understanding and his kindness is focused on you. Sometimes it seems like He's not doing anything. I know the feeling. You feel trapped. These verses help me out in times like those:
"Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations just as it had been said to him, "so shall your offspring be." -Romans 4:18
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6
The world was against Abraham and in truth the promise God made to Abraham was impossible. What Abraham realized was that what was impossible for man was nothing for God to do. Our Lord defies the barriers of our realities. Never forget that. Even when He seems silent, He is shaping all of existence because He loves you with all that He is (Romans 8:28). Proverbs 3:5-6 is how behind Abraham's faith. He trusted and did not lean on his own understanding. In everything he acknowledged the Lord and the Lord came through for him. The Lord is with you!
Let me ask you a few questions:
Do you have a solid church family that you are in community with on a regular basis (by church family i mean you meet with physically, not just fellow believers online)? Community is necessary for our growth as individuals. Having a family in Christ that you are in community with on a regular basis (several times a week) will help you with your walk. When I was first saved, I was at my church as much as possible. I was there nearly every day and that instilled in me the desire for community. Today, I am there two to three times a week. Staying plugged into your local body will give life to you.
Have you looked into local groups that may offer support, like minded individuals who are going through the same issues and may offer you some guidance in what you are going through? I would try sites like meetup.com and search your area for "Christian ADHD support group." That way you have a community that can support you and come along side you who understands what it is your going through.
If you're anything like me, to ask for help is the hardest thing to do. By posting on this forum, you've made awesome steps and there are so many awesome things in store for you up ahead!
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